its going on about 24 hours of no sleep - i cant sleep - i have no idea why i cant sleep, maybe its because my boyfriends not here, so hes not sleeping next to me.. i never had a problem before untill the last couple weeks... grr face. so i dont know - maybe im just nervous and worried about my little kittens doom and gloom, i took them to the vet about 11 hours ago, they went in for surgery - so maybe thats it... or maybe my bodys clocks all fucked up because of going from 1st shift to 3rd shift, getting up at 8am to work out every mon, wed and fri.. and then going to bed at 4 am the next morning... i dont know - im having nightmares if i lay on my left side - or have my head face left when im sleeping.. i had a huge panic attack in the middle of a shower the other day this week... it feels like my bodys rejecting me... and thats not nice at all!! so i dont know why im up at 5:41 am siting on a hard computer chair, trying to find things to do - instead of sleeping in the nice fuzzy warm soft bed of mine. i dont know.... i just dont know....

YEY HALLOWEEN IS ALMOST HERE!!!!

so we went to the rennisance festival last weekend with friends- it was a good time, had alot of fun were going to keep going on a yearly bases, slowly collect our outfits year after year... i cant wait to see what will become of them, how they'll transform over the years!! <3 if anyone knows of any good pattens or outfit ideas for my outfit - please speak up! so far i have the slave bracelet and the gyspie scarf with the gingly beads - both in silver and purple, and some black and purple horns

i want an evil, halloweenie, dark name for a kitten im getting, i need help coming up with a name- if any one can think of any good names please tell me! i need help!!

theres hearts dancing in the background,
my chest is fluttering and light,
im starry eyed,
and its easier to laugh and breathe...
i feel like im walking on bubbles,
everythings a little brighter,
everyones a little nicer,
and the tiniest things make me happy now...
chalk drawn hearts cover the wall,
giggles fill the air,
smiling and blushing is all i do,
and thats allways when i think of you...
ive tripped, i flipped, i fell on my face,
ive hugged, ive groped, ive enbraced,
ive worn, ive slid on, ive put on ..
LOVE <3